Really?????? Nap in the broad daylight??? Cerulean skies with seven minute frosting clouds? Mild 70's?
Because I made a choice that remained TRUE to who I am? Well, now I am going to be driving 10pm-0800 Jax to Miami. It's a familiar run. But I slept less than 4 hours last night due to pain, and have been up, in pain, all day.
I suppose I could have slid backwards a wee bit, departed a short while from who I am integrally. What do I mean?
In order to make my trip to Colorado, and to have extra money to spend on my daughter and grandson, I stayed out OTR the weekend prior to my trip. So far, I have missed two weeks of being in Sunday school and 2 services each Sunday at POCC.
God is everywhere. In me. Around me. Through me.
But the people that love me, that support me, that unconditionally accept me - they are in SoFL at the Pentecostals of Cooper City.
Many times, I am brave and independant. But if I am REAL to who I am?? My support network is at POCC.
So, see? I really couldn't accept load offers that took me north, or west this late in the week. I need to work up and down the state of Florida and stay within my region. This was a short work week for me to begin with. Even if the truck hadn't broken down? To begin to drive on Tuesday would be less miles than usual.
I counted that in as my Opportunity Cost when I made my vacation plans. When I ran my ideas by Pastor Hattabaugh, and then by Alisha, I knew I would miss two weekends at "home".
A third? No. I need to forsake not the assembling together. It's part of who I am,, deep inside.
My batteries need recharged. My tank needs refilled. I need my "family" and those that love me, even when I screw up so royally and cause great harm,,, they simply love me still.
Here I am, with a load assignment to Miami for tonight. I will be able to go by and check on the security of my car at my hiding place. I will be able to take extra clothes, my suitcase, extra book, photos off my cramped and currently over-stuffed jail cell, I mean semi truck. Either put them in my car for now, or ideally, make a run to my storage unit.
I am grateful for this load, for the work, at last. I am grumbly about having to take a nap and waste this lovely day. Ahhhhhh,,,,,, perhaps I will dream something sweet and encouraging?
Goodnight, way WAAAAYYY early. By the time I am stirring again to begin my work day, most people will be going to bed themselves.
Making myself yawn to feign sleepiness ;-)
Jan M. Olsen
~J~
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