I am one of those people tht like the air cool around me, esp for sleeping so i can burrow. Right now? tht hurts. Wish for flannel or fleece softness. Man!

Midnite, Thursday now...supposed to be up, rolling. Can't get out of the bunk tho. Body is locked up. In pain. With a vengeance. Cant breathe.

not cool

my sleep period is 6pm-10:30pm...then roll another 14 hours.

and the fever is in my upper body and jaw.

~ J ~
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"And the dreamer began to climb..."

"at last, the ladder which has been built slowly, slowly, one hope at a time, reached up to the clouds.....

And the dreamer began to climb..."
  quoted from a card, that's at least 4 years old. I wish I knew the source.  When I googled the phrase "and the dreamer began to climb" a link to a photograph of the same card I have came up. 
 
In my Party Room in Leesburg, FL, I put this card in a frame, and it was part of my inspiration. That Summer 2006 I re-created myself.  I went into that cave of indecision as Janet Marie Olsen.  Ole Olsen's ex wife. Lewis Mortner's ex girl friend, Angel & Alisha's mom. 

I came out of that furnace when I returned from my Rebel Rides A Steel Horse tour as JAN OLSEN - Awesome Woman Extraordinaire!!!

This card had a large part to do with my thoughts as they wandered and doodled on the blank pages of my life at that time. As I scribbled, rubbed, blended, cut, wadded up, licked the pencil tip,,,,, I saw this and several other .... well a new word lately comes from an author M.E.S. and it is "INSPIRATIONATORS"  cool word and very powerful!

Here I am today. I'm not lost again.  But it is kinda foggy. The mists are rising from the shoreline.  I'm still paddling to the LIGHT .... and fishing along the way.  I never did know when to say "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH" call it a day.... I always, ALWAYS want to see just what is it around the next bend or curve.

Firm belief that WONDER abounds in my near future.
 
In the card, the ladder is propped on the ground, but it only goes up to the cloud line. The rest is left to the reader to finish the Travel for themselves. To define how high is "up".
 
here is a photo of the quote used on a blogger's  inspirational quotes and discourse page.
 

Quote: “…and the dreamer began to climb.”

great quotes, insights on life — Tags: dreams, motivation, passion, patience, quotes — ramseymohsen @ Tuesday, October 28th, 2008 - 12:51 am


This photo is in my friend’s room and I really think it’s telling of such an inspirational mindset. To me — this means the following;
Have the passion and patience to dream and dream big. Have the patience to piece together “the ladder” in what it takes to get you there. Have the passion to follow through with doing what it takes to accomplish that dream.

~J~

It's Just Funny

•  Juan Tirado Wow..the chilean miner asked for both his wife and mistress to meet him...Dude is coming out of one hole and digging himself in another..lol

no idea the truth to this.  It gave me a laugh though! It would be easy to add to the list of dumb things people do or say. But gonna let this one speak for the masses.

OMW!

Word of the Day

axiomatic
Main Entry: ax·i·om·at·ic

Pronunciation: \ˌak-sē-ə-ˈma-tik\

Function: adjective

Etymology: Middle Greek axiōmatikos, from Greek, honorable, from axiōmat-, axiōma

Date: 1797

1: taken for granted : self-evident

2: based on or involving an axiom or system of axioms

— ax·i·om·at·i·cal·ly\-ti-k(ə-)lē\

Encouraging Words

Dr. Tony Evans - "wouldn't it be nice to play the offense instead of the defense?"
book "Between A Rock and a Hard Place"
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ii Chronicles 7:14-15
   ¹⁴If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.
   ¹⁵Now mine eyes shall be open, and mine ears attent unto the prayer that is made in this place.
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Psalm 27
   ¹The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
   ²When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
   ³Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
   ⁴One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.
   ⁵For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.
   ⁶And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.
   ⁷Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
   ⁸When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.
   ⁹Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
   ¹⁰When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
   ¹¹Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
   ¹²Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
   ¹³I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
   ¹⁴Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
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 Psalm 91
   ¹He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
   ²I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.
   ³Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.
   ⁴He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
   ⁵Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;
   ⁶Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.
   ⁷A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
   ⁸Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
   ⁹Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
   ¹⁰There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
   ¹¹For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.
   ¹²They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.
   ¹³Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.
   ¹⁴Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.
   ¹⁵He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.
   ¹⁶With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation

Feeling better, getting there BIG HUGE GRIN!  LISTENING TO DR. TONY EVANS RADIO BROADCAST TODAY  as I drive out of Tampa. Best spin I have ever heard on Jack and the Beanstalk...

FEE FII FO FUM,,, I GOT THE POWER OF THE ONLY SON!! 
lol
JMO
~J~

As I Get Off the Bus...

I went ahead and backed my empty into the dock, preparing now to disconnect, hook to the new and head to Jax.

I guess what bums me out, besides the fear I felt having to warn the DM he was gonna get chewed out?

Is that I am a damned good driver!  I dropped that trailer in ONE SHOT into a single dock, with cars all up in front where the tractor should have swing room.

Also, I am a conscientous employee.  I take self- pride in a job well-done. That's because all glory goes to God!  By my work, by my attention to detail , by my solicitous concern for the finer aspects, my every action in my life is for God's glory. Not my own.  It's not "self" pride, its a drive to be the best I can be for GOD!  I am just the vessel.

My work ethic is strict, solid, and commendable.  So I feel the sting of "being late" at all.  Then to get the first brunt of the phone call?  Bugs me ... prolly more than it should.

a Happy Hattabaughism here applies : If the devil can't deceive you. He will distract you.  A beautiful day, a blessing from God, better health, awesome job, weather, outlook... and a distraction pops up. Up to me to respond. What will it be?

I do love my job.  And it bring me great pleasure as a person, I can succeed in it.  Excel.  Meet my obligations.Have fun with it.  Endless opportunities to meet people, establish rapport, build relationships, and brighten someone's life just by passing through it.

So,, I am blessed... and I know it... gotta let the small stuff that won't matter tomorrow,, much less the next 20 years,,, or Eternity,,, gotta let it go, Jan. Ya gotta let it go, Girl!

As this hick would say? "Deceiver? Kiss my GRITS!"

As my motivator, Matt Maddix would say rather enthusiatically, "IN YOUR FACE, DEVIL!"

Playing some positive and uplifting music...

Chin up, Soldier! Ok, A. W., I got this from here. Thanks, Gringo.

its gonna be ok, K?

Exhale........
~J~

Riding the Bus

Well now, what a deflate to a bouyant morning. It ends okay, but the middle was uncomfortable.

D.O.T. laws read that a driver can drive 11 hours OR a combo of driving and ON DUTY for a maximum of 14 hours from the starting entry of a shift on the logbook. Federal law.

At either mark, the driver must come to a complete stop for a FULL 10 hours. Do not pass go.  Take a full ten hour break!

In the beginning of my driving career, I used to ask what in the world I was supposed to do with 10 hours off duty straight??  Since then, I have figured it out.  Play solitaire online, of course (NOT!).

Since Sunday though, the loads have required 16 hours EACH on duty / driving.  Both times, I communicated to the driver manager and planners. Offered them to relay the load, make OTD. Team effort is cool by me. Late is not.

Driver manager each time told me, thanks, run with it. So the "late" kept growing a wider divide.

I got a QualCom message to call into Operations in home office in Iowa.  I knew what it would regard.  WalMart fined Kimberly Clark for my late delivery.

When I was able to show the chain of command on QC and phone calls made, that I knew I did not have enough 14 hr shifts?  Well, it rolled back to the driver manager.  He dropped the ball by not performing the relay I requested.

Still,, I did all I could do, but it wasn't enough.

I then called my DM to let him know the call he was GOING to get.. he is not upset.

If it had been JayJ,  he would have been enraged. He accused me more than once of "throwing him under the bus".  And I would pay for my crime against him next time.

Ole was a 6' tall Dane. My Dad, over 6 feet. JayJ 5'11"..... only Lewis was 5'7" and he treated me the best of any man saftey-wise,,, I never had to fear anger from him. He might get mad, but he never physically attacked me. At 5'3" I was a bug most men squash.

Why do the big guys react that way? Is it in the Code of Conduct for 6 feet tall?  Why not pick on somebody your own size that stands a chance of defense or protection?

I tell you, conflict, discord, just makes my stomach recoil.  I hate conflict.  It's expensive.

Still a reflex to duck or flinch when a man moves towards me. I dislike that about myself, but must be re-conditioned to a new way of coping. I try.... I really do.

So now,, my DM is taking his "butt chewing" from Iowa, and I am left to calm my fears and nerves. 

I know, or am learning how to do that.. and just need to pause to see the new behaviors through.

Meantime, I'm fending these phone calls while AT my Tampa shipper, checking in, docking, dropping, connecting etc.

Won't be meeting with Angel today either.  I understand.  But,,, well,, I guess I need to take a second round of relaxing  and diffusing,,, so off I go.

Bus stops here! Jan is getting off this ride to Nowhere Fast!

Jan M. Olsen
~J~

Singing... Then Came The Morning, night turned into day.... and "in that Great Getting Up Morning"..love Bill Pearce' rendition on trombone!

MUSIC THROUGH THE NIGHT, Moody Radio. How inspiring! Never thought of Finding Nemo an illustration of my Heavenly Father! Confirmation from the diving tales.