You don't know why, you cant turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when im with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
Follow Me - Uncle Kracker
sing,, dance,,, sing a new song.... so many pages of life yet to be written.... sing again.... laugh,,, dance.... don;t stop, never stop,, sing, dance.
sing until i'm hoarse
dance until i'm spent.
flop down, catch my breath..... find it in me to get up again,, dance again
damned body
driven,,??????????????????? to WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!
jsut outside headlight beams
NO WRONG TURNS
just driven,, that's to what
Isaac, eagle, wren, humpty dumpty, I cant fight this feeling, pygmylion, classy, ocd
randy.
dad
bobby vidal
Ole
baseball
2006 - A grad yr early, left, Brooks and Dean show, 5 k, stroke, BRP, Rebel Rides Steel Horse, wreck, what dean and i did
otr, company, alliance,
DALLAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jj, jj, jo
mentor
training
came off otr, SoFL, slept, Addy
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Lewis, scuba, fish, motorcycles, LL, - - -- - - - the embodiment of MY Sometimers When We Touch..... sorry i couldnt commit to you when you needed me to,,,, you will never know just how i regret that
and altho i tell u now?? too late.
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Angel -AMO
Alisha - ARO or just A
AMO Warrior Dove, complacent, peaceful, grounded, faithful, procrastinator
ARO Gladiator, Happy Dancer, lifeforce, energy, spitfire, champion
3 jobs 80 hrs week, not miss soccer games, band concerts,etc
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Techman Flowers, sales, growth, wreck in Longwood with truck, FL NO Fault state, no doctor followup, compression
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fevers, sick, recurring, draining, scary
so many songs, so little time!!!!
BEST IS YET TO COME,, A SONG YET TO BE WRITTEN , SUNG, **DANCED***
ocean esp, water, in general
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passion. simple. honor... God will honor his word.
weak. I am.
weak. in him.
weak to protect myself.
not afraid of people. yet, afraid of people.
afraid of myself.
afriad if i let go?? so much pent up inside,,,, must keep reined in,,, keep it together.
just keep going on.
ONE DAY.....
today?
what now? what then? why? how did it get here? where does it go from here? why cant i protect myself? why can't I change?
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cant get my hands clean.
strong, but not enough.,
broken. not always a bad thing, when it comes to being made a new or afresh, or being clay on the potter's wheel.... but broken of spiirit
being powerless and helpless and weak SUCKS.
being sick SUCKS
being alone SUCKS ,,,,, only in that if it is a sign of who I am,,, "such a nice person, heart of gold"... but alone.
being alone is awesome, no more clamor or demands, no one to let down. no bar to achieve except my own.
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its NOT a "Bucketlist" damnit!!!!!!!!!! It's a LIVING list!!!!!!!!!!
do something new which scares me - skydive, with or without.
feel teh wind. feel the rain. feel the air.. feel the sun... feel the tears... feel the crinkle of laughter....
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why can't i die? better damn well be soemthing good in store.
eager for the living.... want it back to where it used to be 200%
stupid stupid life.
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what's next? Let's DO THIS THING!!!
ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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