Essence
I shall be at peace when the lion within can lie down with the lamb.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Not In A Box
Travelling a route from Mississippi to Tennessee that I covered about 3 weeks ago, reminded I am not the same person I was that day. The area pointed out to me its differences. It is cooler temps,The landscape is subtly different, now wearing a Joseph's coat of Fall colors with some thinning to the foliage.
Previously, I had not noticed this is serious cotton farmlands. Today, the harvest is rich & ample. It was one particular field that spoke into my heart. I noticed as the road undulated with the hills, off to the right, the same white heads of the cotton bolls. But THIS field was not squared off in a box. Rather, it was an artistic layout of sweeps and curves. Instead of flat, it rolled up and down with the land. I took another look and realised the shape of the field was due to the farmer had planted around the existing trees! In radiant TN Autumn array, the white tree skirt of cotton crop moved with the land instead of tilling under the sentinels of old.
Stirred in my spirit, I know I just saw a visualization of something I have been trying to explain about my own inner man for a lifetime. I just don't want to be guilty of rigid idealogies, man's dictates, or tradition that no one can remember WHY it was ever done that way to start with. Gifted in spirit, intelligence, and in heart matters, I want to flow as the essence directs. Keep my color & integrity. Profit from that which has blazed before, all while protecting my faith in colors, shapes, changes.
I appreciate the farmer. He did something that was right in his own eyes. Who knows if anyone else noticed? Did the farmers association threaten to disbar him? Did his family scoff? Did his children move away to work another farm that adhered to the established rules of planting?
Who knows.
His statement reached into this road warrior's being. I missed it three weeks ago, when the trees and the crop were a uniform green. Today, challenged to let HIS light shine through my light and windows. As I turn in the sun, allowing the bouncing of my inner light to refract as though from an Austrian crystal.
Cleaned the panes so I can see clearly. Pulled up & discarded the weeds of distraction. Blew out the chaff of people & things that weigh me down. Added color and texture to my support system through new, old, and renewed acquaintences.
Feeling a sirring within me. Time to create again. To explore. To stretch. To extend. Much has been given to me. Much is required. Rested and ready. Eager. Inspired. Warmed of soul, full of passion. Renewed of hope, faith and of love.
Musing,
Jan M. Olsen
~J~
Previously, I had not noticed this is serious cotton farmlands. Today, the harvest is rich & ample. It was one particular field that spoke into my heart. I noticed as the road undulated with the hills, off to the right, the same white heads of the cotton bolls. But THIS field was not squared off in a box. Rather, it was an artistic layout of sweeps and curves. Instead of flat, it rolled up and down with the land. I took another look and realised the shape of the field was due to the farmer had planted around the existing trees! In radiant TN Autumn array, the white tree skirt of cotton crop moved with the land instead of tilling under the sentinels of old.
Stirred in my spirit, I know I just saw a visualization of something I have been trying to explain about my own inner man for a lifetime. I just don't want to be guilty of rigid idealogies, man's dictates, or tradition that no one can remember WHY it was ever done that way to start with. Gifted in spirit, intelligence, and in heart matters, I want to flow as the essence directs. Keep my color & integrity. Profit from that which has blazed before, all while protecting my faith in colors, shapes, changes.
I appreciate the farmer. He did something that was right in his own eyes. Who knows if anyone else noticed? Did the farmers association threaten to disbar him? Did his family scoff? Did his children move away to work another farm that adhered to the established rules of planting?
Who knows.
His statement reached into this road warrior's being. I missed it three weeks ago, when the trees and the crop were a uniform green. Today, challenged to let HIS light shine through my light and windows. As I turn in the sun, allowing the bouncing of my inner light to refract as though from an Austrian crystal.
Cleaned the panes so I can see clearly. Pulled up & discarded the weeds of distraction. Blew out the chaff of people & things that weigh me down. Added color and texture to my support system through new, old, and renewed acquaintences.
Feeling a sirring within me. Time to create again. To explore. To stretch. To extend. Much has been given to me. Much is required. Rested and ready. Eager. Inspired. Warmed of soul, full of passion. Renewed of hope, faith and of love.
Musing,
Jan M. Olsen
~J~
At receiver in Humboldt, TN "Follow the lines of the pavement when you back in. It won't look straight, but it will be straight". HUH?!?!
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kind of the humor. NO yellow lines at all. The plane lines of the concrete ramp was off plumb. The tractor had to keep a bend in it to be square against the dockplate. Dropped it in one shot, with one pull up! whoop whoop!
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kind of the humor. NO yellow lines at all. The plane lines of the concrete ramp was off plumb. The tractor had to keep a bend in it to be square against the dockplate. Dropped it in one shot, with one pull up! whoop whoop!
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Visiting my parents is a full-fledged Pandora's Box. Sifting the positives and negatives through the "grateful sieve", I come out in one piece and blessed. oxo,,, got my mom & dad fix :)
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dad had me drive us back to Birmingham.
the girls and I hold hands,,, without thinking, I reached over and took my mom's hand.
she pulled hers away.
par for the course. why do i still feel it then?? jan you are such a dumbass
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dad had me drive us back to Birmingham.
the girls and I hold hands,,, without thinking, I reached over and took my mom's hand.
she pulled hers away.
par for the course. why do i still feel it then?? jan you are such a dumbass
No Words Necessary
God, your timing is perfect. What I see as delay,
you see as protection.
What I champ the bit over? You shelter me.
In awe and gratitude :)
Slowing Down To Live
I just photographed a scary hour of my being "LOST" in my semi truck,,, the road got narrower,, and finally the pavement ran out. It became red GA clay! That kind of experience and my joy to try new things leads to my book title "No Wrong Turns" ,,,,, just roads I haven't tried yet!!! Perfect example! The original was a solo motorcycle ride in Central Florida. New photos coming to Facebook!
The roads I was lost on had names, but no road signs. Edges, but no shoulders. Hardtop, but no pavement. It was fun!
The Fall air is gentle and cool. I like cool temps. Great for camping in a tent, hiking, fishing, just enjoying Creation! Today I wore a lightweight long sleeve jersey, just to FEEL the fabric on my skin after a humid SoFL summer.
exquisite day of passion and inspiration!!
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Everything in Georgia is running slow today, slow motion, speed of snail,, torturous turtle,,
Like the semi truck that was looking in to the glare of early eastern sunrise,, that he got blinded and ran his red light,,,, in slow motion, I saw us about to hit T-bone as I went through the green... my slowing down, and him slammiing on his brakes... averted the crash.
Angel is much better! YES! Pleased with her that she took yesterday and today out of class.. she was sick 2 weeks ago, and went back the next day she felt better... this time,, along with the ENT side of it,, she got the flu too!!!
She has had ruptured eardrums before,, so I am just glad to hear the congestion and fever is moving on. Bless her for taking the time off to recuperate!!!
I teased her, that even though she has not made time to meet up with me the last 2 times I went through tampa,, that somehow the little monkey still gave me her cold or flu or whatever. I am not claiming either... just pouring in the vitamins, tea, supplements, Airborne, and today had to add a cold remedy jsut to stay rolling.
Then as I rolled west of Albany, GA,,, on US-82.... I came upon a REAL TREAT to me!!! A Hardees in the middle of NO-Where with truck parking!!!! A rare find!! They were actually one of my first jobs in high school,, only back then they were called Poppa Jay's and served fresh fried chicken and peach cobbler.
So even though they were slow as Christmas and I can not taste anything,. just for the happy time the finding of a Hardees during breakfast hours with truck parking?? I stopped.... just for the heck of it.
Sure hoping I roll fast enough to Jasper before my clock runs out! If it is meant to be?? What will be, will be.
Today is shaping up,,, and if I dont get to see my folks?? well,, heaven knows,, my body could use a dead-to-the-world GREAT SLEEP!!!
The roads I was lost on had names, but no road signs. Edges, but no shoulders. Hardtop, but no pavement. It was fun!
The Fall air is gentle and cool. I like cool temps. Great for camping in a tent, hiking, fishing, just enjoying Creation! Today I wore a lightweight long sleeve jersey, just to FEEL the fabric on my skin after a humid SoFL summer.
THREE ROADS DIVERGED IN A GEORGIA PINEY WOODS, AND I?
I TOOK THE ONE BEST TO TRAVEL BY!
exquisite day of passion and inspiration!!
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Everything in Georgia is running slow today, slow motion, speed of snail,, torturous turtle,,
Like the semi truck that was looking in to the glare of early eastern sunrise,, that he got blinded and ran his red light,,,, in slow motion, I saw us about to hit T-bone as I went through the green... my slowing down, and him slammiing on his brakes... averted the crash.
Angel is much better! YES! Pleased with her that she took yesterday and today out of class.. she was sick 2 weeks ago, and went back the next day she felt better... this time,, along with the ENT side of it,, she got the flu too!!!
She has had ruptured eardrums before,, so I am just glad to hear the congestion and fever is moving on. Bless her for taking the time off to recuperate!!!
I teased her, that even though she has not made time to meet up with me the last 2 times I went through tampa,, that somehow the little monkey still gave me her cold or flu or whatever. I am not claiming either... just pouring in the vitamins, tea, supplements, Airborne, and today had to add a cold remedy jsut to stay rolling.
Then as I rolled west of Albany, GA,,, on US-82.... I came upon a REAL TREAT to me!!! A Hardees in the middle of NO-Where with truck parking!!!! A rare find!! They were actually one of my first jobs in high school,, only back then they were called Poppa Jay's and served fresh fried chicken and peach cobbler.
So even though they were slow as Christmas and I can not taste anything,. just for the happy time the finding of a Hardees during breakfast hours with truck parking?? I stopped.... just for the heck of it.
Sure hoping I roll fast enough to Jasper before my clock runs out! If it is meant to be?? What will be, will be.
Today is shaping up,,, and if I dont get to see my folks?? well,, heaven knows,, my body could use a dead-to-the-world GREAT SLEEP!!!
Jan
high cotton
Sylvester, GA-
Home of Peter Pan Peanut Butter and the Worth Cotton Gin Mill.
well now, aint that purty cool?!
the fields are white to harvest... figuratively & literally. And cotton has rained down on the roadway like snow. How rural & Americanna! Some color change for Fall and less foliage.
Well, it's 8 days until my flight Jax-Denver. It's been almost 3 weeks since I've heard from Alisha though. No replies to my weekly email. Wondering if she switched which job she worked most? She talked about full-time manager. Part-time server.
Or did Tony find out & forbid the meeting after all? I think he gave his permission as long as I did not come to their physical address? Longing for a word of confirmation that all is well.
Also, going to be minutes from my parents this afternoon, was going to spend the early evning at their place connecting.
No answer on house phone (and no v-m machine picks up??) or on their cell. No reply to text or email.
WHAT IS GOING ON? Did I miss a memo?
Nah, just being me. I'm reaching out..... it's a roll of the dice if the response breaks my heart or makes it sing. Could go either way with this silly set of people called "family".
So, working on encouraging myself...and not letting the fever win. IT's a cold this time, gotta kick that before I fly!
Pondering,
Jan M. Olsen
~ J ~
Sent from my Verizon Wireless mobile phone
Heart In My Hand
Gonna try,, key word, try,, to stop in and spend Thursday afternoon and night with my parents in Cordova, AL.
There are a few obstacles. They shouldn't drive after dark. That not only means coming to pick me up, but also the return trip to the truck stop...
I yearn to see them.
But I would have to go back to my truck at 0300 Friday.
I dunno....
loving,
jan
There are a few obstacles. They shouldn't drive after dark. That not only means coming to pick me up, but also the return trip to the truck stop...
I yearn to see them.
But I would have to go back to my truck at 0300 Friday.
I dunno....
loving,
jan
Let Them Praise
that's the song Twila Paris is singing on Moody Radio at 0115. Already feeling a conviction - a tugging in my heart to look for the blessing in my evening. Repenting of my pain and grumbling.
I did get about 5 1/2 hours of sleep. I did wake up, and eventually get stretched out to sit up, swing out, then even stand up. Took over an hour to sit upright, just now beginning to breathe less tortured.
With all that? I woke up, I COULD move, breathe, feel....and work. I have a good job, more than adequate, rewarding too.
The forest is veery black, alot of wildlife moving. So much time to pray..to share with my God, my Creator, my Father my joy and appreciation for the living. How many times has he saved me from my stupid self? How many times has he woke me up, in spite of my best efforts to sleep forever?
Pulling me deeper, closer, more intimate....loving me still. I am so blessed. I have a dream, and breath to draw... to raise PRAISE!
To love more fully....to reach out to the hurting, lonely, rejected, downcast,,,,
Thanking God for the 566,092,800 seconds I had with EACH daughter for the first 18yrs of their life...
Life and right now? Is good. Onward bound.
oh, and God? thank you for PUFFS PLUS!!!
jan
~ J ~
Sent from my Verizon Wireless mobile phone
I did get about 5 1/2 hours of sleep. I did wake up, and eventually get stretched out to sit up, swing out, then even stand up. Took over an hour to sit upright, just now beginning to breathe less tortured.
With all that? I woke up, I COULD move, breathe, feel....and work. I have a good job, more than adequate, rewarding too.
The forest is veery black, alot of wildlife moving. So much time to pray..to share with my God, my Creator, my Father my joy and appreciation for the living. How many times has he saved me from my stupid self? How many times has he woke me up, in spite of my best efforts to sleep forever?
Pulling me deeper, closer, more intimate....loving me still. I am so blessed. I have a dream, and breath to draw... to raise PRAISE!
To love more fully....to reach out to the hurting, lonely, rejected, downcast,,,,
Thanking God for the 566,092,800 seconds I had with EACH daughter for the first 18yrs of their life...
Life and right now? Is good. Onward bound.
oh, and God? thank you for PUFFS PLUS!!!
jan
~ J ~
Sent from my Verizon Wireless mobile phone
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
not cool
my sleep period is 6pm-10:30pm...then roll another 14 hours.
and the fever is in my upper body and jaw.
~ J ~
Sent from my Verizon Wireless mobile phone
"And the dreamer began to climb..."
"at last, the ladder which has been built slowly, slowly, one hope at a time, reached up to the clouds.....
And the dreamer began to climb..."
quoted from a card, that's at least 4 years old. I wish I knew the source. When I googled the phrase "and the dreamer began to climb" a link to a photograph of the same card I have came up.
In my Party Room in Leesburg, FL, I put this card in a frame, and it was part of my inspiration. That Summer 2006 I re-created myself. I went into that cave of indecision as Janet Marie Olsen. Ole Olsen's ex wife. Lewis Mortner's ex girl friend, Angel & Alisha's mom.
I came out of that furnace when I returned from my Rebel Rides A Steel Horse tour as JAN OLSEN - Awesome Woman Extraordinaire!!!
This card had a large part to do with my thoughts as they wandered and doodled on the blank pages of my life at that time. As I scribbled, rubbed, blended, cut, wadded up, licked the pencil tip,,,,, I saw this and several other .... well a new word lately comes from an author M.E.S. and it is "INSPIRATIONATORS" cool word and very powerful!
Here I am today. I'm not lost again. But it is kinda foggy. The mists are rising from the shoreline. I'm still paddling to the LIGHT .... and fishing along the way. I never did know when to say "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH" call it a day.... I always, ALWAYS want to see just what is it around the next bend or curve.
Firm belief that WONDER abounds in my near future.
In the card, the ladder is propped on the ground, but it only goes up to the cloud line. The rest is left to the reader to finish the Travel for themselves. To define how high is "up".
here is a photo of the quote used on a blogger's inspirational quotes and discourse page.
great quotes, insights on life — Tags: dreams, motivation, passion, patience, quotes — ramseymohsen @ Tuesday, October 28th, 2008 - 12:51 am
This photo is in my friend’s room and I really think it’s telling of such an inspirational mindset. To me — this means the following;
Have the passion and patience to dream and dream big. Have the patience to piece together “the ladder” in what it takes to get you there. Have the passion to follow through with doing what it takes to accomplish that dream.
~J~
And the dreamer began to climb..."
quoted from a card, that's at least 4 years old. I wish I knew the source. When I googled the phrase "and the dreamer began to climb" a link to a photograph of the same card I have came up.
In my Party Room in Leesburg, FL, I put this card in a frame, and it was part of my inspiration. That Summer 2006 I re-created myself. I went into that cave of indecision as Janet Marie Olsen. Ole Olsen's ex wife. Lewis Mortner's ex girl friend, Angel & Alisha's mom.
I came out of that furnace when I returned from my Rebel Rides A Steel Horse tour as JAN OLSEN - Awesome Woman Extraordinaire!!!
This card had a large part to do with my thoughts as they wandered and doodled on the blank pages of my life at that time. As I scribbled, rubbed, blended, cut, wadded up, licked the pencil tip,,,,, I saw this and several other .... well a new word lately comes from an author M.E.S. and it is "INSPIRATIONATORS" cool word and very powerful!
Here I am today. I'm not lost again. But it is kinda foggy. The mists are rising from the shoreline. I'm still paddling to the LIGHT .... and fishing along the way. I never did know when to say "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH" call it a day.... I always, ALWAYS want to see just what is it around the next bend or curve.
Firm belief that WONDER abounds in my near future.
In the card, the ladder is propped on the ground, but it only goes up to the cloud line. The rest is left to the reader to finish the Travel for themselves. To define how high is "up".
here is a photo of the quote used on a blogger's inspirational quotes and discourse page.
Quote: “…and the dreamer began to climb.”
great quotes, insights on life — Tags: dreams, motivation, passion, patience, quotes — ramseymohsen @ Tuesday, October 28th, 2008 - 12:51 am
This photo is in my friend’s room and I really think it’s telling of such an inspirational mindset. To me — this means the following;
Have the passion and patience to dream and dream big. Have the patience to piece together “the ladder” in what it takes to get you there. Have the passion to follow through with doing what it takes to accomplish that dream.
~J~
It's Just Funny
Juan Tirado Wow..the chilean miner asked for both his wife and mistress to meet him...Dude is coming out of one hole and digging himself in another..lol
no idea the truth to this. It gave me a laugh though! It would be easy to add to the list of dumb things people do or say. But gonna let this one speak for the masses.
OMW!
Word of the Day
axiomatic
Main Entry: ax·i·om·at·ic
Pronunciation: \ˌak-sē-ə-ˈma-tik\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle Greek axiōmatikos, from Greek, honorable, from axiōmat-, axiōma
Date: 1797
1: taken for granted : self-evident
2: based on or involving an axiom or system of axioms
— ax·i·om·at·i·cal·ly\-ti-k(ə-)lē\
Main Entry: ax·i·om·at·ic
Pronunciation: \ˌak-sē-ə-ˈma-tik\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle Greek axiōmatikos, from Greek, honorable, from axiōmat-, axiōma
Date: 1797
1: taken for granted : self-evident
2: based on or involving an axiom or system of axioms
— ax·i·om·at·i·cal·ly\-ti-k(ə-)lē\
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